Prayer For Help With My Smoking Addiction
Good Prayers For Those Suffering From Addiction
Whether religious or not, prayers or mantras can become a valuable source of positive affirmation in your life when battling drug addiction. One of the most common prayers repeated in recovery is known as the Serenity Prayer.
It was created by Reinhold Niebuhr and reflects the attitude that not everything in life may be controlled.
It acknowledges the struggle we all face in seeking out a path toward serenity and recovery in a world that often feels chaotic and beyond our control.
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference.”
A mantra, or prayer the one above, may be repeated daily to help reinforce positive thinking when cravings are creating distractions on your path toward recovery. The Recovery Prayer by Abby Willowroot, is designed to reaffirm your awareness of the strengths it takes to recover from addiction:
“Today, I heal my body, my mind, my spirit, my life. Drugs are a part of my past; they are not part of my now, they are not part of my future. Today, I am clean. Today, I am clean and free.
Today, I am becoming strong one second at a time, on thought at a time, one action at a time. I am learning how to live and to be the best parts of me today. Today, I am clean and free.”
In the Christian faith, addiction is often linked to a kind of spiritual warfare. Within the book of James this verse appears:
“Blessed is the man that endureth temptation: for when he is tried, he shall receive the crown of life, which the Lord hath promised to them that love him.Let no man say when he is tempted, I am tempted of God: for God cannot be tempted with evil, neither tempteth he any man: But every man is tempted, when he is drawn away of his own lust, and enticed.
Then when lust hath conceived, it bringeth forth sin: and sin, when it is finished, bringeth forth death.”
Universal Messages In Prayers Relating To Addiction
There are some common themes that emerge throughout in prayers and mantras relating to addiction. These prayers often relate to seeking truth, demonstrating how muddled our perceptions become when we are using.
They ask us to remain honest and acknowledge the addiction; not to control or manage it.
They showcase the courage it takes for someone to face the fear, damage inflicted by, and the severity of cravings and withdrawal symptoms relating to addiction.
Most, as with the Serenity Prayer, they identify a notion that the addicted individual fell into addiction because they were suffering from some underlying struggle. And nearly all highlight an awareness of a higher power, whether it be God, or finding serenity in nature – seeking out something pure on a path darkness and shadow.
One particular bible verse found within Corinthians, quite simply acknowledges the free will to choose to use, while including a most helpful mantra in contrast, “I will not be mastered by anything.”
“Everything is permissible for me, but not everything is beneficial. Everything is permissible for me, but I will not be mastered by anything.”
The Efficacy Of Prayer
Prayer and mantras as described above have been widely used in treatment and recovery programs, but are they effective? Science supports prayer appears to be an effective tool for relaxing the body, lowering blood pressure, and helping uplift mood. As such, prayer or mantras may be most beneficial when they are recited during times of high stress or tension. Repetition of prayer can play a critical role in reducing blood pressure and inducing calm for the troubled individual.
Which prayers work best for one person, depends a lot on their belief system and what the individual finds meaningful. Sometimes addiction has so far blinded a person from any awareness of good left within them, it is easier to acknowledge good outside of the body, a spiritual awareness, while beginning to reconnect with the good inherent in the person.
Someone recovering from a long-term addiction may find himself or herself in a place of destruction, in which relationships, career, and finances have fallen apart. They may feel unlovable, unreachable at the start. This is where prayer can help reinforce a message of hope that they are not lost, that there is light at the end of this dark, dark tunnel.
Prayers For The Newly Sober
Prayers or mantras for the newly recovered might be more strongly rooted in helping connect the individual with the support that surrounds them, whether that be support from God, family, or some other network. The following is a message that separates the addiction from the individual.
“My mistakes don’t define me, but are transformed by the grace of God. Therefore I release shame off of me and receive love from God and others.”
Other prayers help us remember the importance of focusing on one moment at a time, one day at a time, to manage the anxiety that is recurrent in early recovery.
Knowing that the problems that surround us are temporary and will subside, and that we must only focus on one issue at a time in those early stages of recovery will also help alleviate some of the self-inflicted guilt when we try to think so far ahead and feel we must fix all that was broken at once. The following mantra is part of a larger poem to aid in this one day a at a time thinking:
“Just for today, I will try to live through this day only, and not tackle all my problems at once. I can do something for twelve hours that would appall me if I felt that I had to keep it up for a lifetime.”While most are aware of the beginning few lines of the Serenity Prayer, the remaining text is often left out. To paraphrase, the text goes on to suggest living one day at a time is key to finding peace. It also suggests that the challenges we face on this path are not designed to stop us, but to help strengthen us on our path toward serenity in recovery:
“Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardships as the pathway to peace…”
St. Jude’s prayer addresses the addiction accurately as an illness. At the same time, the prayer is interwoven with the notion that the addicted person is not alone in his or her battles with addiction.
Again, it reiterates those powerful messages of unconditional love, separating the addiction from self, and self-awareness that we are no longer in a place of control, but on a path toward recovery from something that has so long controlled us.
“God of life, You made me in Your perfect image, to live in Your love and to give You glory, honor and praise. Open my heart to Your healing power. Come, Lord Jesus, calm my soul just as you whispered ‘Peace’ to the stormy sea.
St. Jude, most holy Apostle, in my need I reach out to you. I beg you to intercede for me that I may find strength to overcome my illness. Bless all those who struggle with addiction. Touch them, heal them, and reassure them of the Father’s constant love.
Remain at my side, St. Jude, to chase away all evil temptations, fears, and doubts. May the quiet assurance of your loving presence illuminate the darkness in my heart and bring lasting peace. Amen.”
The “set-aside prayer,” popular within Alcoholics and Narcotics Anonymous groups, asks the addicted individual to open their minds to the experience of living free from addiction, by addressing specific long-standing notions.
“Dear God, please help me to set aside everything I think I know about [a person, place, or thing], so I may have an open mind and a new experience. Please help me to see the truth about [a person, place, or thing].”
Prayers and mantras sometimes seek help from a higher power or behave as affirmations designed to connect an individual with personal growth and strength.
The following poem, Salutation to the Dawn, asks a person to focus on the power of today by examining the reality of what exists within a person’s life and to celebrate how far they have come, how much they have grown. To live in the now with the kind of awareness that will create a vision of hope for the future.Look to this day!For it is life, the very life of life.In its brief courseLie all the verities and realities of your existence:The bliss of growth;The glory of action;The splendor of achievement;For yesterday is but a dream,And tomorrow is only a vision;But today, well lived, makes every yesterdaya dream of happiness,
And every tomorrow a vision of hope.
The power of prayer in addiction recovery
“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30
Struggling with a substance abuse addiction takes its toll not only physically and emotionally, but spiritually as well.
That’s why Christian drug and alcohol treatment centers strongly believe in treating the person as a whole; mind, body and spirit.
How does prayer work in recovery? The power of prayer in recovery builds hope and provides the motivation and strength to fight the good fight against addiction.
Finding or restoring a relationship with God during rehab provides a powerful Helper while on the journey to life-long recovery. Strengthening a relationship with God through group and personal Bible studies, and fellowship with others through prayer groups, provides an unexplainable sense of peace and boundless hope. In its essence, faith in recovery needs to be accompanied by actions.
“Jesus stopped and called them. ‘What do you want me to do for you?’ he asked. ‘Lord,’ they answered, ‘we want our sight.’ Jesus had compassion on them and touched their eyes. Immediately they received their sight and followed him.” -Matthew 20:32-34
The healing power of prayer is a proven fact that scientific and medical research equally support. There are documented studies that prayer has healed many serious diseases much to the puzzlement of medical practitioners. The power of prayer is a mighty God-given gift that can heal addiction too.
No one is without weakness; no one. How we react to that weakness, however, makes all the difference in the world. Turning to drugs or alcohol is the easy way out and not the reaction God desires.
God offers unlimited strength to those who turn to Him in prayer; releasing control and allowing Him to take charge of that weakness – that addiction – will extinguish its power and hold on an addict’s life.
There are many more benefits gained through genuine faith and prayer:
- You will never be alone in the battle
- Relief from fear and anxiety
- Balance of mind, body and spirit
- Experiencing pure joy which increases the effectiveness of treatment during rehab
- Inspiration to do the work necessary to achieve a new life free of addiction
- Greater mental focus
- Diminished stress levels
- Strength against addiction triggers
- Reduced rate of relapse
- An increase of dopamine levels in the brain generating the serenity once manufactured by drug use
- Absence of depression
- A 24/7 Helper to guide you to making the right choices while accepting what cannot be changed
How to Pray
“I lift up my eyes to the hills—where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth.” – Psalm 121:1-2
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Think of prayer as a conversation between you and God. Talk to Him as if you were talking with a friend. Prayer does not have to be a script; filled with ‘thee’ and ‘thou.’ God wants to hear from you – personally.
A good guideline is to:
- Start with some praise, tell Him how you care for Him and trust in Him alone
- Thank Him for the blessings in your life; big and small
- Ask Him for healing from your addiction and share the desires of your heart with Him
- Ask for forgiveness
- Ask for strength and protection against the evil powers of addiction
The 12-Step Recovery and Prayer
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference” – Reinhold Niebuhr
A.A. and N.A. believe deeply in utilizing the power of prayer for recovery and healing. A countless number of addicts have achieved successful long-term recovery with the strength gained through praying to God.
Each of the twelve steps is complemented by a prayer which can be incorporated into personal prayer time. Reciting the Prayer of Serenity during A.A. meetings is customary and a good prayer to find strength on a daily basis during life-long recovery (what the Serenity Prayer means).
Believe in the Power of Prayer for Recovery
“The thief’s purpose is to steal and kill and destroy. My purpose is to give them a rich and satisfying life.” –John 10:10
Drugs and alcohol are not your friends. They are the enemy – the thief – that is intent on destroying lives and families. God promises unconditional love, protection from your enemies, a Helper to guide you and strength to carry you through. All you have to do is believe.
Prayers for Addictions
This “Prayers for Addictions” page
to help and encourage those
who are fighting an addiction battle.
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We have several prayers
including an audio prayer.
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Before we share the prayers on this page,
we first want to share the other pages
that we have on this topic.
POWERFUL Addiction PRAYER
Prayer for Yielding to God and following him more closely
For tips on Conquering Addiction:
“How to Stop Drinking and other addicitions”
For more Power Prayer:
Addiction Spiritual Warfare Prayer
For Addiction to Pornography go to our page:
Get Free from Pornography
For Becoming a VICTORIOUS CHAMPION
Champions for Christ!
Prayer for Help
You know what I crave.
You know my struggles.
I call out to you.
You have all the answers on how to be free.
Cleanse my thoughts and cleanse my body.
Renew my mind as I read your Word.
Guide me through this valley to a place of victory.
In Jesus’ name I pray,
Copyright © 2015 Beth McLendon of Inspirational-Prayers.com
Next we are going to present an
Addiction Prayer from Ora Mosley.
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Prayer for Tobacco and other Addictions
Next, we present to you the following devotional-prayer.
It is specifically written for a
Copenhagen tobacco addiction.
Nevertheless, you can use it to fashion a prayer
that meets your specific need.
Every heartfelt prayer
is a welcome prayer to the Lord.
Friend and Enemy
Oh,what a friend I have in you my dear Copenhagen; you've always been very closeto my heart.
Thrugood times and the bad, you've never abandoned me. I've entirely depended onyou thru the most horrific times of my life. You truly have been my bestfriend. You have always sought me and wrapped your arms around me. You haveplanted seeds of desire for you; how great are thou.
Ihave protected you from wicked people who have talked poorly of you. I have hiddenyou and justified our close nit relationship. How dare someone talk badly aboutmy best friend….you can't be the sin everyone is saying. You must love me….and never would you mean to bring harm to me. You've been a great and powerfulforce in my life.
Mydearest friend Copenhagen,my newest friend, Jesus Christ,
has convicted myheart about you.
Hehas shown me the darkness of our relationship. The lies and deceit that youhave taught me has trickled into other parts of my life.
Youhave attacked my integrity, my faith, and my direction toward the Lord.
Youhave warped my mind and now I must rewire my thinking. You have also attackedmy lovely wife with lies and deception.
You'rethe same snake that deceived Eve in the Holy Garden. You are the Prince of theEarth, but no longer the reigning source of my heart, mind, and soul. In thename of Jesus Christ, I release you into the hands of the Father; may his willbe done.
I plead the blood of Jesus Christ of Nazareth over my wife, family,and me. I demand you to leave with your lies and deception immediately! I'm anew being in Christ, and I firmly stand on this from this day forward.
Copyright © 2008 Tim Miller
Used by permission
I encourage you to say these often:
I will dwell on the good, godly things
that God puts into my life.
I will satisfy myself with the good, godly things
that God putsinto my life.
to read a Food Addiction Prayer
written by a visitor to this site.
We invite you to the bottom of the page
to read several new addiction prayers
from another visitor to this site.
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Please consider writing your own original prayer for addiction
and sending it to us on the form below.
We all need each other.
We also suggest that you look through our Full Armor of God pages.
Those pages are designed to add strength to our life.
Here is an example:
The Shield of Faith
They are all posted on our Bible Devotions page.
Prayers for Addictions
“Save me, O God, for the floodwaters are up to my neck. Deeper and deeper I sink into the mire; I can't find a foothold. I am in deep water, and the floods overwhelm me.” Psalm 69:1-2 NLT
“O Lord, I have come to you for protection; don't let me be disgraced. Save me and rescue me, for you do what is right. Turn your ear to listen to me and set me free.
Be my rock of safety where I can always hide. Give the order to save me, for you are my rock and my fortress. My God, rescue me from the power of the wicked, from the clutches of cruel oppressors.
O Lord, you alone are my hope.” Psalm 71:1-5a NLT
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What Other Visitors Have Said
Click below to see contributions from other visitors to this page…
Rescue from the leavened quicksand
Heavenly Father; I cry out to you to help me … for I am sinking fast into the leavened quicksand. Addiction is pulling me into the deep darkness of despair …
My God is able
I pray for the addicts, I pray for the children in the cross fire, I once was lost, (life of an addict) but now I am found. I ask this for my son. …
Trusting in YOU L-RD
Yahweh Rophe Only YOU can change the path of my son. I repent for the days of his childhood when I failed him because of my addiction to alcohol. I feel …
Addict for too long
I need you father god , addiction to drugs has left me alone , I need you for you are the only one who really knows me, and has never left my side , I …
Take one if you will and slip away another day. A day used someone else walked, yours gone you just talked Not to add but …
I have a sex addiction
Pray for me that I loose the desire to just have sex with anybody it could be a stranger and I don't care I just want to have sex. I meet people off line …
Forgive him bring him your light
Pray fir my lost soul son who is wrapped up in drinking, drugs, smoking. He is depressed. Suffers form sleep path era and wastes his money on indulgences. …
Dear lord please help me hold on I am tired and I can't be strong. My life is crumbling from the inside out. I am worthy of your love I have no doubt. …
My child don't you know how it makes my heart grieve To see you struggling so just to believe? Don't you know that I love you – that my heart breaks …
How Do I….
How do I let go of all of my grief? How do I turn to You and completely believe? How do I let go and hand You my fear? How do I trust You with …
Look To Me
Look to me my child when you're down and out. Hit your knees and call my name when you're full of doubt. Lift your heart and your eyes to the heavens …
Unworthy of You, Your grace and Your love. Unworthy of Your Son sent from above. Unworthy to even utter Your name. I'm just a lowly sinner …
The Devil is Calling
The devil is calling; please help me be strong. For what he is asking my heart knows is wrong. He plays on my fears as he calls out my name. But …
I need help from addiction
PLS pray for me to be forever free
She wrote: I am in a world wind of darkness. I can't break the addiction of drinking, my finances are getting worse. I need to find a job or I will loose …
Prayer for Food Addiction
Dear Heavenly Father, You alone, know ALL my needs, and all my body's needs, having created it. Food has been my “comforter” for wayyyy too long. …
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Best Home Remedies to Quit Smoking
As more people become aware of the dangers tobacco products present to human health, the demand for smoking cessation aids continues to increase at a rapid pace. While many pharmaceutical remedies are effective, they can become rather expensive for those who are living on a budget.
Luckily there are some remedies which may be done at home for little cost, often using items you already have, or ones you can find easily at the store.
Part of the reason that nicotine is so addictive and so hard to get rid of is because it permeates your body as a toxin. It gets into your system and is very hard to get out. But water is a natural detoxifier. It will purge your system better than just about anything. And your body needs water to counteract many of the harmful effects of tobacco and nicotine.
The water helps you heal and it enables you recover from smoking while you are trying to quit. As you abandon your regular smoking habits your body will heal on its own and start to detoxify, but water gives it an extra boost, and it speeds up the process, helping you fight your addictions that much more.
As your try to quit smoking, you will ly start to feel nauseous. This is one of the most common symptoms people experience when they try to quit. To combat that nausea, you can take ginger, either in tablets, capsules or as a tea. It will calm your stomach and help you overcome the nausea. And it might keep you from being tempted to go back to the cigarettes for relief.
As you fight the toxins in your body, you may feel you need some help.
Multivitamins, especially those containing Vitamins A, C, and E are excellent for repairing your body and giving it the essential nutrients it needs to expel toxins.
What you are looking for as you combat your addiction is something that can ease the withdrawal symptoms and make you better able to handle your cravings. Vitamins reenergize your system and give you the strength to fight back.
If you want to combat the cravings specifically, then ginseng may be the key. You can use about a spoonful of ginseng powder and add it to your juices, cereal, oatmeal or soup. It is best to take it during the morning. That way it can fight your cravings all day. If you find that it is not enough for your cravings, then you can increase your dosage or take it more frequently.
You may already be taking ginseng if you take a multivitamin, so look at what your vitamins have to see if you really need to take ginseng in addition.
The biggest part of conquering your addiction and the symptoms of withdrawal is to get the toxins your body. Nicotine is one of those toxins, and once it is out, you should not experience any more cravings or withdrawal symptoms.
Increasing your water intake is a great way to do so, but you can fight even harder by drinking grape juice daily. The acids in the juice are natural detoxifiers and they will rejuvenate your system and cleanse out the toxins faster.
It is the toxins that are causing you to feel cravings and that keep your energy levels down. By using detoxifiers you can boost your energy levels and start to feel better much faster.
Though essential oils are probably not going to help you kick the smoking habit, they can help you beat the stress that could end up putting a cigarette back into your hands. Oils from lavender, tea tree and rosemary have been shown to increase mood scores and reduced stress in recent studies.
Fruits and Vegetables
The fiber in fruit and vegetables will make you feel full and for longer. Sometimes hunger can be mistaken for the urge to smoke. Cutting down hunger could lead to fewer cravings for a cigarette.
Beans and grains are a great way to add a lot of filling fiber to your diet. Fruit bananas and apples are very good to help keep you feeling full.
While the concept of detoxifying your body using herbs and tonics is debatable, the body does do a good job of detoxifying itself. There are things you can do to help this process move along more swiftly.
Drinking enough water is one of the best ways to help your body detoxify itself. Your body is made mostly of water, and most people do not drink nearly enough. When you give up cigarettes, make sure you are drinking the recommended 8 glasses of water per day. You can also drink half your bodyweight in ounces per day as well, if that helps you remember more easily.
For instance, if someone weighed 200 pounds, they would need to drink 100 ounces of water each day.
Limit your caffeine consumption as it can end up creating a toxicity that combined with nicotine withdrawals makes quitting even harder.
Since metabolism slows when somebody quits smoking, caffeine consumption during this period leads to a rise in caffeine levels.
The nicotine in tobacco products is what makes them so addicting. When you give up smoking cold turkey, you may suffer from some major withdrawal symptoms ranging from nausea to irritability to jitters.
One way to ensure you don’t give in to the urge, is to distract yourself from your cravings. This may mean something different for different people.
For instance, you might engage in one of your favorite hobbies so as to not think about smoking. Some find success with chewing gum whenever they feel the urge to smoke, according to WebMD.In some cases the action of chewing on something, such as gum or food, eases the cravings.
Some smokers find that all they need is a little incentive to stop smoking. WebMD mentions a smoker whose family member offered money for each day she didn’t smoke a cigarette. For others, just thinking about what could be purchased using money formerly spent on cigarettes is enough to encourage them to quit.
Make a list of some things you have wanted to purchase but haven’t. Determine how long you will have to go without smoking to save the money you need to make your purchase. Another incentive is taking a trip. Determine how many packs of cigarettes it will cost to take this trip, and begin right away.
Having something to look forward to and having a more concrete goal just might make the process that much easier.
There are some herbal remedies which may help offset some withdrawal symptoms related to quitting nicotine. According to Home Remedy Shop, ginger may help alleviate nausea withdrawal symptoms, while oatmeal could help the body detoxify itself faster. Studies have also shown that some herbs, such as St. John’s Wort, may also lessen the urge to smoke.
5 Days After Quitting Smoking
It is now 5 days after quitting smoking and it has been an interesting journey so far. I’m going to let it all hang out here today and tell you exactly what is going on for me.
So please excuse the potty mouth and the way I say things. It won’t all be pretty, but this journey has not been pretty!
If you are considering quitting smoking and want to know what it feels , here is the uncensored truth!
So the first thing I want to say is Oh My God, I haven’t had a cigarette in 5 days!
I just can’t believe it. After 22 years of smoking a box of cigarettes a day I have made 5 days without smoking a cigarette. I honestly never thought I would be able to make it this far.
First Day of Quitting Smoking
So my first day of quitting smoking was really hard. I was angry, I could not concentrate and I felt completely dissociated. I felt I was not in control of my body, it was I was outside of my body and watching from somewhere else. Somewhere far, far away.
I didn’t enjoy this feeling at all. Another problem was that it was a Thursday, a work day! I could not concentrate and I was jumpy all day.
Every now and then for no reason I screamed “Fuck It!”.
Strangely enough this helped quite a lot, so I highly recommend you try this!
By lunch time I made a decision, I was not going to even attempt working any more. I needed to be busy, but with my hands. I left my laptop and started cleaning (yes strange things happened!) and then preparing supper for my family. Peeling vegetables was strangely soothing.The day got a lot easier when my hubby came home from work. He quit smoking with me and it was easier to be distracted with him and the kids at home.
That night was terribly hard though. I think children are programmed to know when something hectic is going on, they pick up on something and react in the worst possible way!
I have bipolar and I have had trouble sleeping all my life. For this reason I am on Seroquel at night. It helps me fall asleep and it helps me stay asleep. This makes life just so much smoother. If I am going through a tough time I chat to my doctor and he lets me increase my meds for a little while.
So it made sense for me to double my meds for a few nights. I had visions of lying in bed, awake all night craving cigarettes and I couldn’t think of anything worse than that.
I went to bed nice and dozy, ready to end the first 24 hours… and then both my kids woke up. We got them to sleep, went back to bed and yes if you are a parent you know exactly what happened! The little buggers woke up again, and again and again. Literally all night.
It is one thing being woken up all night when you are tired and miserable and craving a cigarette, but when you are on meds that make you sleepy it is something else entirely.
I think I made the most noise that night everyone in the family and the person I really felt sorry for was my husband! Well no, not at the time, I didn’t give a shit to be honest.
I was blotto on my meds and thinking only of myself.
In the morning when I got up I felt bad and sorry for him because I honestly behaved worse than the children the whole night!
Second Day of Quitting Smoking
I found day 2 a little easier than the first day. I had already made a decision that if I found trying to work too hard I would go for taking some time off, instead of risking smoking. I worked for about 2 hours before I felt terrible. I called a friend and we went out for a few hours.
As it turned out she is an ex smoker, she quit 9 years ago so that certainly helped me and she showed loads of support. She also didn’t mind me in my zombie-, dissociated state which I appreciated. Going out for most of the day was a good decision, it really took my mind off the smoking.
The evening was a little bit rocky.
There was an AA rally in our area on the weekend which I went to on Friday night, but I forgot about the “smoking club”! You know how all the smokers hang around outside and chat? Well now I wasn’t one of them anymore.I arrived and I didn’t know where I fitted anymore. I felt I had lost a best friend. As I walked in a few of my smoking buddies greeted me and I didn’t slow down. I shouted that I quit smoking and I couldn’t stop till I was inside.
It worked. I got inside to the meeting without having a smoke! After the meeting when I would normally stay and have a cup of coffee and a smoke I made a run for my car instead. I wanted to smoke more than anything, the feeling was starting to get really uncomfortable now!
Third Day of Quitting Smoking
My hubby turned to me and asked me why I just shivered… I explained to him that I was struggling with the feeling of craving. I start to crave a cigarette and then I feel there is a huge empty hole in me. I am determined to not smoke so my addict mind tells me that is fine, how about some cocaine? A shot of Tequila? No? Ok then what about some tik (speed) or a little joint?
That is when the shiver goes down my back. I can’t handle this feeling. I know this feeling, I have been here and I hate it. Maybe I should just have a fucking smoke? Am I risking my whole recovery here over a cigarette? Am I at risk or is it just my nicotine addict trying to trick me?
I start wondering where I could buy drugs in this area, I have never used here… I know where the bottle stores are, that is easy. Will it be easier hiding drugs or alcohol from my husband? I have no idea because I met him when I was a few years clean and I have not relapsed.
What the fuck am I thinking about? No ways am I going to use drugs or drink. I will not smoke either. I am stronger than this.
I grabbed my daughter and I went back to the AA rally. We ran past the smokers outside and into safety. I shared with some people how I was struggling with not smoking and it was making me really edgy.
The funny thing is that the cravings are less than before, they are shorter and there is more time in between carvings, but when they hit they HIT. I feel I am just sitting happily minding my own business and suddenly a craving comes and gives me a massive punch in the side of my face. Then it is gone and I am left wondering what the fuck just hit me?
I can make all this go away, I can buy a box of smokes and it will be gone!
You can read about my drug and alcohol addiction days in the ebook I wrote – The Darkest Hour is Just Before Dawn.
4 Days after Quitting Smoking
My hubby tells me that he is struggling. He tells me that if I start smoking again so will he (is that a pleading look of hope in his eyes? Does he want me to start smoking?). I start giggling, I know this manipulative addict. It lives in me too.
I tell him I won’t be responsible for him smoking. If he wants to carry on smoking he can do that, or he can carry on with the quitting journey. His choices have nothing to do with what I do.
He doesn’t look impressed with me at all. I’m not feeling great either.
I start wondering if he starts smoking can I get away with smoking and placing the blame on him? And yes I have just laughed at him for trying this!So this craving comes and smacks me again. I go to the shops and buy “some” snacks to keep me busy. I vowed not to do this.
I have memories of sitting in a hot car with my mom and my sisters after school. My mom is eating Fruit Pastilles sweets. They are sticky from the heat and it makes me feel sick to the stomach. My mom gave up smoking and all I remember from this time are sticky sweets… lots of them.
So my “few” snacks are: 1 pack of Red Velvet Cake Fingers, 4 rolls of Rollos and 4 packs of Chocolate Sponge Fingers. This is going to last me a LONG time. Just a few little things to take my mind off smoking.
5 Days after Quitting Smoking
It is Monday, so now we are back to needing to work. I am behind with everything because I barely worked on Thursday or Friday. I need to get back to the real world. Life can’t come to a complete stop while I get over my smoking addiction.
Maybe I can just have a little puff? Maybe there is a stompie (cigarette butt) in the garden and I can get just one drag it?
I turn on my laptop and make another cup of coffee. It is my 4th cup this morning and I am starting to feel shaky. I open a pack of Chocolate Sponge Fingers. Yes, it is 8am and too early for cakes BUT remember I used to have a line of cocaine first thing in the morning. What’s one little piece of cake, right?
I check my emails and I get whacked with another craving so I pop another Chocolate Sponge Finger in my mouth and carry on working. A few minutes of successful work goes by. Another craving hits and I instinctively reach for another cake. What the fuck? There are none left!
Some asshole must have nibbling on my snacks and I am pissed off. I go to the cupboard to grab another pack. Yeah you guessed it, there are none left. It is only 9am and I am not in the right space of mind to do anything except pound the walls. I do a little bit of pacing around and it doesn’t help at all. I feel I could climb the walls.
I slowly start calming down and I look back at my desk. I’m not sure why I thought some “asshole” (ie my loving, wonderful husband) ate all my cakes. The evidence is all there, the empty wrappers are all over my desk. Damn I am becoming my mom with those disgusting sweets!
Ok really not all bad, she quit smoking and is still a non-smoker.
I lost 7 kgs in July when my tonsils were taken out and I had a long stretch of bad health. I am now 55kgs and my perfect weight is 60kgs. I can certainly eat a few cakes without feeling a failure, actually I can eat 5kgs of cakes before I have a problem.
Can I Quit Smoking without gaining Weight?
Who knows, I have only been 5 days without a cigarette! The people I know that have quit found that eating really helped with cravings. Of course this can lead to weight gain which might be problematic for a lot of people.
I am very fortunate, I am not one of those people that put on weight easily and if I do put on a bit of weight I can lose it quite quickly without too much effort. Because of this I am also not too concerned about my weight.That said I have eaten so much in the last 24 hours that I feel sick. I feel bloated and terrible. I don’t advise this route if you can help it. It makes me feel better in the moment, yes it takes the craving away. BUT I can’t pop a piece of cake in my mouth every time I have a craving. Perhaps chewing gum, peppermints or biltong (beef jerky) would be a much better alternative to cake?
The truth is why worry about a little weight gain when you are thinking of quitting smoking. Smoking is dangerous and will kill you. Once you have quit smoking you can lose the extra weight right? When you die from smoking… well, you’re dead so nothing more to worry about. I think a few extra kgs is nothing to worry about in the bigger scheme of things.
So what does a cigarette craving feel ?
I get a sudden feeling of euphoria, a feeling that suddenly says “hey Lynne, something fucking A is on the way! It’s a …. cigarette!”.
I get a deja vu feeling, the hairs on the back of my neck stand up and often I get a shiver down my spine.
The next thing to come is the empty feeling, the loss of smoking, such disappointment. Nothing but a cigarette (or drugs/ alcohol) can fill that emptiness. I feel angry and annoyed. It is whirlwind of emotions and feelings. A lot of it is very physical too.
At times these cravings are a roller coaster, coming fast and furious without relenting. Other times it is being in a little boat on a pond. There are ripples of cravings coming but they are gentle and easy to ride out.
The hard part for me is that I never know what type of day will come tomorrow. What I have seen the last 5 days is there is no pattern with it getting easier by the day. It is up and down and all over the place.
All I do know is I want these uncomfortable feelings to go away! I can feel my nicotine addict chipping away at my determination.
I know this update doesn’t sound great, but 5 days is a huge achievement for me and for any other smoker! I hope this is just the start of my journey and I can share more success with you soon.
Have you quit smoking? I would love to hear about your experience.
Check out my progress at 2 weeks and at 30 days!